Monday, September 20, 2004
the fuckin' faggot told my prince "the truth"! shits. what an airhead! so dense. so now we're pretending like nth happened. argh. go to hell, you're queer.

today wasnt the best day either cos thou shalt not be mentioned - if you're reading this, you might just know who you are - was giving me her attitude again! gee. it's like a daily thing that cant be avoided as much as I try to be nice and ignore sudden outburst of rage or irritance and sensitive subjects. gawwsh I wish the world could see the trouble I go through every weekday just to sustain peace and harmony within my comfort zone! obviously she's crossed the line and had alrdy broken into my bedroom, rummaged through my closet and taken my accessories! stop it and get out NOW! I dont get it cos I know I've done my part as a friend and I dont deserve whatever she's done to me over the months. gawwsh. the best part is, she's taken my words and used it as her own! ARGH!

dear Jesus,
in times of rage and anxiety, help me to deal with it with a cool head. I know You're always there speaking to me and it is very impt to to able to hear You. Give me the courage to forgive and love those who have trespassed against me.

your daughter,
Gen

it felt good singing "what a friend we have in Jesus" when I was at the verge of flaring up. at least, it made me feel His presense and calmed my senses. there's a line which goes like, "everything to God in prayer" - it meant alot to me. I needed it.

I love Jesus. thank You for being so near.



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