Sunday, October 10, 2004
I miss YOU, mama! you're the air that surrounds me.
sometimes I wish she would bring me to heaven with her. it's so painful to be left alone to deal with so many hurdles without a constant source of encouragement, support and unconditional love. I've come to a deeper realisation that there was and will nvr be another person who loves me more than she did and still do (I know). I guess that's what making it so difficult for me to move on as the days pass. memories will always be locked in my heart. I can nvr forget that smile or that touch of her hand.
Jesus... the steps are getting heavier day by day. please help me with my cross.
|Lady`Fayth|
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Friday, October 08, 2004
girlfriends are biaches.
boyfriends are bastards.
what abt gayfriends?
I should've known better than that! it's impossible to find someone who wansta be a genuine friend cos that's too much risk to take. like it or not, nobody's ever there when I
NEED them by my side. here are some cliche stuff they lurve telling me:
"I'll pray for you." ah! thnx. ya know what? God's trying to send you a msg. guess what is it? "TALK TO HER, damnit!"
"I'm so sorry. I'm too busy with my work. hang in there girl, you know you'll survive." yeah thnx. that was alot of concern aye?
-MIA friends-
"you dont hafta be so affected by them, girl. just be yourself." ha. thnx alot. try being me.
~.~.~.~
I'm gonna turn to gayfriends cos I reckon they're:
1) sensitive (not petty!)
2) fun-loving people
3) loyal
I hope I'm not misjudging people again.
|Lady`Fayth|
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Saturday, October 02, 2004
it is time to find a new identity instead of ripping off from role-models. not like it's anything bad, considering that I'm in such a phase. but it just lacks the sense of originality in terms of personality and charactor that I display. I wanna be me. there's so many things that I have in store to show! I'm worth priceless and nothing can take that away from me.
I want ...a clear reflection in the mirror.
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inspired by a previous post)
|Lady`Fayth|
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