the fuckin' faggot told my prince "the truth"! shits. what an airhead! so dense. so now we're pretending like nth happened. argh. go to hell, you're queer.
today wasnt the best day either cos thou shalt not be mentioned - if you're reading this, you might just know who you are - was giving me her attitude again! gee. it's like a daily thing that cant be avoided as much as I try to be nice and ignore sudden outburst of rage or irritance and sensitive subjects. gawwsh I wish the world could see the trouble I go through every weekday just to sustain peace and harmony within my comfort zone! obviously she's crossed the line and had alrdy broken into my bedroom, rummaged through my closet and taken my accessories! stop it and get out NOW! I dont get it cos I know I've done my part as a friend and I dont deserve whatever she's done to me over the months. gawwsh. the best part is, she's taken my words and used it as her own! ARGH!
dear Jesus,
in times of rage and anxiety, help me to deal with it with a cool head. I know You're always there speaking to me and it is very impt to to able to hear You. Give me the courage to forgive and love those who have trespassed against me.
your daughter,
Gen
it felt good singing "what a friend we have in Jesus" when I was at the verge of flaring up. at least, it made me feel His presense and calmed my senses. there's a line which goes like, "everything to God in prayer" - it meant alot to me. I needed it.
I love Jesus. thank You for being so near.
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oh okay. the past 2 days has been awefully depressing. argh.
almost confessed my feelings to muh prince charming but my pride was holding me back. I dont wanna feel awkward facing him this weekend! and the those ahead. he's too good to miss out on, seriously. good looking, great personality, smart, humourous, a roman catholic (like me!)... etc. what more can I say? get a grip, silly!
Fallen head over heals... dont wanna get up cause of Love...
gawwsh. gen gen, what has gotten into you?
I dont like who I see in muh reflection and I cant seem to tell who I really am. all I can say is, it's not easy being me.
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oo. you mean it's been so long since I last updated? gee. well, lemmi explain, fickled-me couldnt decide on which blog to use, so I often end up not posting instead. hehe.
oh oh! where do I start?
2 days ago, zel, jen and I went on a major tanning job! ahh it was absolutely, outrageously heav'nly. phew! it felt so good when the rays poured on us. it could feel as if we were lifted up to the kingdom above! ha, I am not exaggerating alright? I dont know when was it that I've adopted a fetish for the the universe's greatest source of energy, but I'm sure it's made my spirits brighter! (: there, we nvr fail to find gorgeous looking hunks, boyband wannabes and cute li'l kids waiting to grow up to be prince/princess charming. aye, I simply adore sentosa.
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